How To Forgive Yourself
Patricia Monserrate believed she had to be perfect in every way. This included keeping the secret of her abuse. One night, as her two small daughters slept in their beds, she found herself alone in a closed closet, sitting on the floor crying and screaming at God, "I can’t go on - I want to die."
Patricia Monserrate is a native of California who loves to travel. She is a licensed evangelist and missionary who ministers to hurting single women, wives, couples, and young people searching for answers.
Her passion for those less fortunate has been the driving force to promote growth in the community and in women. Patricia takes pride in providing the best personal, professional, and spiritual solutions to those looking for a better way of living. Recognized for her extraordinary commitment of volunteering, she received the President’s Volunteer Award for four straight years.
Forgive Yourself To Find Freedom
It was impossible at times to live without confusion and pain. Its ugly marks of guilt and shame left Patricia uncertain of her identity, or where she belonged.
What effect does keeping a secret have on us? A deep-rooted secret carries a darkness that affects our physical and mental health. It brings brokenness, sadness, and hopelessness. To overcome guilt and shame, we need to forgive ourselves, to finally find freedom.
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Blueprints of Shades
Blueprints of Shades was birthed out of a dark secret kept for over forty years.
Anyone who reads the book will live through the main character’s life. They will feel her shame, pain, and hopelessness, and realize they can receive forgiveness and unconditional love.
When an innocent acceptance to a party turned into a night of terror, the beautiful emerald green-eyed Callie Leland was deemed to live a life of shame and isolation with a dark secret. Despite her nightmarish beginning, she finds solace in her talent as an interior designer in New York. Her future was quickly interrupted by her move back home to Kayla Bay.
As the new senior designer of Shades of Designs, her project manager, Oliver Mason, finds himself drawn to Callie’s beauty and the mystery behind her emerald-green eyes. But Callie is immune to the advances he directs her way. However, Callie quickly falls for their biggest client’s eldest son, Sergio Rossini. As Callie’s affection grows stronger for Sergio, she cannot accept his love because memories of the past haunt her.
Feeling betrayed, Oliver devises a sinister plan to ensure no one comes between them. The two young hearts understand that both are struggling with pain, though each is different. Will they trust God’s unconditional love to heal their brokenness, to bring their blueprints of darkness to blueprints of light? Or will Oliver sabotage it?